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Themoment when I arrived in Beijing, it's already 2:00 AM. Since many flights started from Chongqing were delayed, mine was also not an exception -- it was supposed to take off at 9:00 PM yesterday. But that is just life; you have to sacrifice something to get something, as I spent the whole day on the tour to the The Dazu Rock Carvings, which enlisted as the culture heritage of the world. It’s rather magnificent, better than Longman Grottoes in my opinion.

On my way back to dormitory from airport, the radio in the cab said the reason why tongue exists longer than teeth is that the hard things are easier to be damaged than the soft ones. It’s a regular saying, but I think it’s a misunderstanding: just imaging the tough foods teeth have to deal with every day! And all tongue need to do is delivering them to teeth, and it only do some real work while kissing-- obviously tongue is a manager! But thinking in another way, you can lose your teeth while it’s horrible to lose your tongue—you’ll be hard at eating, and saying goodbye to speaking and kissing! In real life, sometimes you have be a tooth before you are a tongue, and that’s why I got up at 7:30 AM and went to work 乖乖地 as usual today.

It was kind of relaxation this morning, since all i needed to do was having a business conference in the head quarter of China Mobile, escaping from all the phone calls, emails and instant messaging.(And it do make the afternoon much tougher that I handled more than ten various things in three projects with nearly ten people of four provinces, proud of myself !!!) I even got a longer sleep of 30 minutes because the meeting started at 9:00AM and there is a direct subway to the Financial Street where the building locates. The theme of today’s discussion is to reach an agreement of the following stages and time duration before the project, a cooperated program between ABC and China Mobile, officially goes online. Lao Zhu, the project manager, was supposed to go with me at the beginning. But as his daughter was still running a fever, I had to go there alone representing the technic team with three other colleagues of Settlement Department.


Lecture: What you need to demonstrate if you attend a conference representing your team.

Recently, I’ve been assigned to several critic meetings alone by my manager. It’s kind of a big step, symbolizing your ability and approval by the others. In my experience, first you have to show your qualification of understanding and retelling a discussion in your daily work before the others can entrust you with something. Negotiation skill is also very important, for no one will defend your team’s interest except for yourself. Despite that, you also need to have a clear picture of what you will be discussing; otherwise the situation will be really awkward and you can be misled and looked down upon by people who have different interests.(By the way, never make any stupid promise of anything you are unsure—leave the decision to your supervisor.) Last but definitely not least, always remember to report to your manager after the meeting!

Today is Wednesday-the special Wednesday.As usual, I went to WuDaoKou for the Athena Toastermaster weekly meeting. It is a fantastic place to practice your oral English, and also the skills of delivering a speech. Before you became a member, you should attend the meeting at least three times, and made two impromptu speeches during the table topic session. After you’ve got the enrollment, you can deliver a prepared speech which lasts 5 to 7 minutes. There are also some evaluators for your speech, such as Grammarian, Timer, Ah-Counter, Speech Evaluator, and also the General Evaluator who evaluate the evaluators. These roles will be taken by different persons in turns, in that way you’ll also get a chance of being critical thinking. I’ve gone there for more than twenty weeks continuously without a break. It’s kind of a miracle, since it’ll take me about 2 hours and a half to commute. Every time the meeting finishes, on my way back dormitory, the enthusiasm of learning English will arouse, especially after delivering a nice speech or a good evaluation sometimes. Also I leaned that there are tons of things to be improved during my speech, such as vocal varity, body language and hand gesture, and it is a really hard thing to get rid of your bad habits—just time will tell.

It has been quite a time since I started to think about doing some writing again. Maybe as we grow older, we tend to hide our real thoughts, and it’s odd to say or write some kinds of things. But if that keeps going on for a long time, probably we will not try to express ourselves any more eventually, and that is definitely not a good thing because we do need something other than just sophisticated respondents, whether it’s right or wrong.  Since it may seems to be uncomfortable or unnatural if we still record our daily lives in Chinese, I should try to pick up English writing, for sometimes it just feels fine to say the same thing in English rather than Chinese, and English writing skills could be helpful in the future, just as I benefit a lot from the Chinese writing during the past years.

After finishing the first paragraph, I have already found several severe spelling mistakes. Colorful underlines shows repeatedly in this doc. Thanks to Microsoft Word, I can correct them easily—just two clicks. If not, to go through a dictionary definitely will be a pain in the ass. But thinking in another way, convenient correction will make a less impressive impact in our mind and next time, probably we will still make the same mistakes. Just imagine a test without tools, I can now sense the chill in the air. From this perspective, I should correct the misspell word by writing it again after I see the right spelling hinted by the software, and in Chinese, I guess it’s called a pain in testicle.

Recently several senior colleagues had been divided to a newly established team, which made me a senior player in our team. Today, the team leader told us that we’ll have a upgrade of the infrastructure software in Chongqing this Saturday, which mean our systems building on that foundation will have a upgrade also. As Lao Zhu, the most experienced stuff, is in anxious of his daughter’s fever, I was assigned this heavy task alone. The time for preparation is so limit that I actually have to come up with a lot of documents in a hurry. Along with the other two projects I am following, and one project that will be online next month, it is kind of thrilling. The only thing bothers is that if you are handling several things simultaneously, you can be interrupted constantly by the others whenever you are focusing on something, which I still can’t find a way to figure it out. Anyway, hope the trip to Chongqing this weekend will be fine.

 

 

每次打开这个界面，却又总是提笔即止。生活如流水般在继续，而常常无法去记忆。上次的日期俨然停留在了2月15日。时隔5个月，这大约是一段漫长的光阴。却又如眨眼即过的浮萍。

去年十月去了趟呼伦贝尔，风景虽好，却已是秋天。趁着盛夏，再次踏上草原，便是另一种感觉。营地里从夕阳西下持续至半夜圆月的烧烤，歌声，孔明灯，月光下于空旷山坡处的漫步，也是一番美好。

两个月前，参加了新东方的一个英语班，好歹继续着，不至于多年的积累荒废。顺带着参加了Toast Masters在五道口的分部，相互学习中，却也多了很多欢乐。

单位部门里职能组调整。除去一个已跳槽的学长，一个志愿去广东分中心的女生，组里剩下的十八人里分出去了九个。虽然并过来七个其他组的人，但感觉还是骤然疏散许多。却也因此，当了组里新接的两个协办项目和一个科维任务的负责人——你永远不知道明天会发生什么。

所以，有时候会觉得，这个世界的乐趣，也在于它的多样。如果沉耽于一处的美好，可以满足，但是不是终究还是止不了遗憾。

一：

呀呀学语的时候，你坐在妈妈的怀抱里，睁着大大的眼睛看大人们贴春联；忽然有那么一天，你高了，开始拿着春联剪刀透明胶，上爬下俯横竖比划；再后来，你顶着微白的霜鬓，站在楼梯边指挥着儿子，“左边高了点”，你说。直到最后，你微笑着坐在暖阳下的轮椅上，什么都不说，只是静静的看着儿女儿孙们上下忙活：春联，一贴就是一生。

大年三十的早上，和父亲一起贴春联。请原谅使用“父亲”这个庄肃的字眼，但随着年岁的增长，当开始学会从一个男人的角度互相理解，感情从亲畏转变成可以共同分享一些事情的亲敬时，“父亲”，大约是最合适的心情。

当天晚上还赶了四个场所，家人，亲戚，朋友。分配时间很累，心情很好。




二：

正月初三，从初中同桌开始，一直到现在年三十晚上都会出来碰头的朋友结婚了。维持友谊很重要的一点，不外乎互相欣赏。

其实一直都很感激十年前到现在的那几个朋友和那一伙人，虽然现在每年相聚的时间也不多。是他们让我看到这个世界的多样性，让我懂得人性可以有的善恶，和他们一起做过的那些以后或许不会再做的事，让我成长，让我之后能够坦然面对很多的诱惑。也正是他们，让我在之后的世界中，再也无所畏惧。

p.s. 八辆大奔作为婚车队出现在小县城里，很拉风。如果能够给予所爱的人这些作为其中的一种幸福，我想现在的我也一定会去争取。


三：

以下改变上文的语气，开始记流水账：

另一个高中的同学结婚，许久不见的大家玩的很high，并准备合力灌倒坐在另一桌的YR同志（不是新郎）。等到最后，我准备毕其功于一役，开始和他喝酒的时候，YR同志的大学同学（也是新郎的大学同学）出来逼叨逼叨了。我心想分寸我们自然会把握，你对我们高中这帮人来说就是一个根本不熟的人，来凑和什么热闹啊。好言和他说了几句，大意就是我和YR同志喝酒是我和YR同学的情谊，我不会害他去医院的，可惜这个人还是不识趣，非盖着杯子不让喝。我那天也喝了不少，顿时火就上来了。（从这点来说，我还是蛮喜欢喝了酒的状态的，妈的，放的开啊）。正要翻脸，还好YR同志没醉，主动要和我喝，我也没给他多倒，也就意思了一下，把重点放到他同学身上了。顺圈敬过去，给这哥们倒了半杯，喝了一大口之后过了一会，哥们突然拿个空杯说干完了。我因为一边喝酒，一边和周围几个老同学说话，一下疏忽了，没注意他到底是喝了还是倒桌底了，就表示疑问。后来边上的两个女生说他确实喝了，我想以和小姑娘的交情，大致不会胳膊肘往外拐，诚然不会我欺也，再看他也不像撒谎的样子，于是也喝了。再一想，还是不爽，于是又拿了酒瓶，给那哥们又倒了大半杯，表示要再敬一个（当然也是对自己的酒量心里有数）。此举一出，哥们于是就熊了，当然，最后还是拗不过喝了。后来我们参观完新房出来要走的时候，去饭桌上拿衣服，发现这哥们倒着睡着了...

从这件事来说，我们可以得到的教训是，喝酒一定要先把气势喝出来啊！

跑题了。

不管愿不愿意，2011，终究不以人的意志改变而到来。没有太多的感慨，似乎时光的流逝就变成了一件天经地义的事。

中心租了两栋新的大楼，好歹结束了之前飘忽的办公地点，几年之内不会再变，当然出差例外。上班时间也从之前的走路5分钟变成了公车30分钟。今年的北京迟迟不下雪，但早晨风起的时候，刮的耳朵还是生冷。

傍晚的窗外



年底最后一次的绩效考核，得到了组内第六名的成绩（项目组内第三），加上今年下半年组里新来了两个员工，人数达到了20，也因此正好处于前30%，忝列优秀员工行列。虽然因此加的工资不多，不过好歹也算一种荣耀，回家也有了和家人吹嘘的资本，毕竟排在前面的都是工作了近10来年的老员工，更何况，依然还霸占组内最年轻员工宝座，无疑是最大的资本。

项目慢慢开始进入详细设计的阶段，工作量陡然大了很多。外协们也在这个时间进入了项目，加起来技术人员差不多有了近三十人，还不包括后面还要进来的纯写代码的。和一堆三十来岁的人平起平坐，开始还有点心虚，后来慢慢也习惯了，只要你真诚待人，再加上有能力，别人自然也不会看低你。每天都是不停的讨论，支付系统业务规则上的，设计方案上的，部门间的沟通，和其他公司之间的协商，组里的秘书不在或者开技术性较强的会议的时候，还要负责写会议纪要，再加上其他一些同时进行的零碎的老系统升级和分行技术支持，每天连轴转个不停，有时候坐在公交车上还会收到乌鲁木齐之类的地方打来的求救电话。而需要学习的仍然有很多，也要等到这个项目结束后，全国进出本行的钱都收归手下（的系统），那时候才能真正成为组里和部门里不可或缺的一份子。

参加了单位里的摄影比赛投稿，得到了2个优秀奖，聊胜于无，不过值得一提的是竟然是处里两百号人仅有的奖项了。陆陆续续的也看了几场演出，话剧<恋爱的犀牛>，<两只狗的生活意见>，傅聪在国家大剧院的肖邦独奏会，美国爱乐乐团的新年音乐会，这些或许也是都市里为数不多的魅力之一了。和反抗的演唱会也终于如期召开，效果应该还不错。剩下的，也就只剩年关将至，回家过年了。

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我们台湾这些年

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佐藤可士和的超整理术

当我谈跑步时，我谈些什么

沉思录

万物有灵且美

孤独六讲

厚黑学

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【皇冠信譽】正版現貨！石田裕輔《不去會死！》西遊記

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写下题目前，数了数今年的日志数，不多不少，正好二十篇。

到洛阳参加研讨会已经有2个多星期。二代支付系统的需求还是有很多待定。疲倦的时候有些想北京，不过想到一年以后进出全国ABC的钱都由这个处理，又恢复干劲。之前一年的项目因为进入时已经到了实施阶段，所以更多的是技术层面上的处理。这次能够在项目开始的时候就跟进，见证一份完整的需求的诞生，对银行与人行以及银行内的各个部门间的分工与合作也有了个管中窥豹，再加上认识不少生面孔，也算是一个额外的收获。

工作的间余，吃喝玩乐倒也没有拉下。分行的招待很热忱，盛情难却之下，酒也喝的凶，常常52度的杜康每人一喝就将近半斤。河南也玩了个大概，从白马寺，龙门石窟，嵩山少林寺，焦作云台山，再到这周将要去的开封，可惜每次的安排都时间较紧，算是真正的“到此一游”了。

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晴天。

清晨的阳光不热也不烈，透过高大的建筑物，在地图上勾勒出许多不规则的图案。人走进去，便会感觉到那种冬日的清冷里所特有的暖意。

街上一片明亮，微眯着眼睛远眺，才能望向光线来自的天边。

路边不时地会有一两个小摊，蒸笼上冒出的热气，如同白雾般，慢慢地向上升腾。

行人们手里拿着牛奶豆浆包子油条，或急或弛地赶路。

这样的早上，给人以无穷的希望。

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黄昏是一天中视力最弱的时候，只是现在已经看不见黄昏。六点左右的上海，就已经摇身一变，成为蒙上黑色面纱的女子。然而也算不上是夜，因为路上总是车水马龙，天边也总会被灯光映的泛红。如同起雾。

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旅行回来过后的好几天，时常陷入一种莫名的恍惚中。

雾气弥漫的红松林。晨光明媚的白桦丛。夕阳暮色里大草原上的策马狂奔。惊鸿一瞥巨大而明亮的北斗七星。满洲里灯火通明的夜色。室韦镇上空的璀璨银河。每晚酒桌上的推杯致盏与欢笑。最美丽的风景，永远是相机无法记载的，它在每个人的心里。

人生如梦。